IT TURNED OUT THAT MY WORST CRITIC WAS MYSELF... <3
Since going online, I have had a lot of "firsts"...
My first VULNERABLE post...
My first post that provoked a lot of "UNFRIENDING"...
The first time I got "BLOCKED" by an individual and a group...
My first online "HATER" who tore me to threads...
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Every time I had a "first", I was filled with so many emotions...
shame,
fear,
overwhelm,
dread,
self-doubt,
etc...
At times the emotions would get so strong that I was barely hanging on... trying to keep posting... keep connecting... keep being strong...
When I wanted to curl into a ball and hide... and protect myself from it all...
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Then, I realized that the problem was actually "MY STUFF"... my own shames, fears, insecurities, and self-doubts...
I realized that all the haters, the critics, the blockers and the like... were only triggering me because I was doing the SAME to myself!
I was my OWN worst critic... my OWN worst hater... the person who was tearing myself down to the ground...
So, all I needed to do was work on MY stuff... MY shame, MY insecurities, MY fears, MY self-doubts...
And then I wouldn't give a shit about the haters, the critics, the blockers, and the like...
Because I could handle my very worst critic of all... MYSELF. <3
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Let me know if you'd like me to help you free yourself from your Social or Performance Anxiety and achieve your life goals.
To your wonderful self...
Marni Penner. A Kanadai Coach :)
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